So... if the 5 month hiatus from my brand new blog didn't give you a hint, I've been very busy and blogging quickly went to the bottom of my to do list. My last post was about how I've just been struggling to find myself lately and that has continued to be true, BUT I think I'm finally getting somewhere!!!
I've been doing a lot of thinking and soul searching, and a good bit of pity partying as well, but that's about over now! The demands of motherhood and a full-time job have really been weighing on me. I just felt that those two things alone left me with demands on almost all my time and the job has been depressing me because all I do there is think about where I'd rather be. What my soul searching has led me to is a realization that my current job needs to be a means to an end. I don't want to work there forever, and not even much longer. But for the time being, it provides benefits for my family and a salary I can't begin to replace in the rural area we live in. What that means is that I need a plan to change my life before I can change my job, and I think I'm on my way!!
It's a total cliche that you need to do what you're passionate about to be happy, so I'm going to give it a shot. My passions right now are crafting, creating and homes. So my plan moving forward is to develop my own products/services to sell and become a licensed real estate agent. Two separate ventures, but I feel like if I can get them both moving forward it will allow me to replace enough of my current income to move forward with staying at home most of the time in the next few years. And I CAN NOT WAIT for that!!! I follow so many of you other bloggers out there who have set-ups similar to this that seem to give you lots of freedom and the ability to spend time with your kids and to tell you the truth I'm ridiculously jealous.
None of these changes will start full scale tomorrow, but finally after too much time down in the dumps, I feel like I have a plan that will make me happy and allow me to help my family better in so many ways. I'm still having tough days but I'm also excited for tomorrow instead of dreading all the monotony that I have been dwelling on for a while.
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